Long time ago, I started Beth Moore's Believing God study. Life got in the way and I never completed it. But tonight, I did the final lesson. The journey of believing God continues. It's on this journey that I started believing God for Hannah's healing. Though I thoroughly believed he'll heal her by taking the tumor, he healed her by taking her home. It's part of the journey. I won't lose faith. I won't lose hope.
Part of tonight's homework had us look at 1 Cor 13 anew, and I thought to post the rendition I did some time ago. So I won't forget.
If I speak English, Afrikaans, Chinese or even some Swahili, but I don't love relentlessly, I'm nothing but a dog barking at the moon.
If I share God's Word with children and adults alike and have enough faith to move to Kenya, but I don't have relentless love, I am nothing.
If I give up luxuries, opportunities, and resources to reach the people of East Africa, if I live alone surrounded by Kenyan corn fields, but I don't love relentlessly, it's as if I've journeyed nowhere.
It matters not whether I can speak with a funny accent, pray with passion, believe without limits. Without love, my life is worthless.
Relentless love never, ever gives up, even when life is tough.
Relentless love cares more whether neighbors are warm than whether I'm comfortable.
Relentless love doesn't want what God hasn't given.
Relentless love doesn't do things to be seen or heard.
Relentless love doesn't care about my opinion and my needs, but listens to the opinions of others, and takes it to heart.
Relentless love puts others first.
Relentless love doesn't get annoyed when yet another person asks for money, or drives poorly...
Relentless love forgives, again and again.
Relentless love doesn't rejoice when others fail.
It finds joy in truth and in seeing others discover these truths.
Relentless love doesn't give up, but puts up with all things knowing that it is part of God's greater plan, and trusts that God has the best at heart. Always.
Relentless love seeks to see the best in others. It doesn't look back and wish for better days past. It pushes onward, knowing that beyond this mountain, far greater things await.
Relentless love doesn't wilt, nor dies. It's not "on" one day and "off" another. You can depend on it, even though you cannot depend on things and systems, even though you cannot always even depend on other believers.
Though I don't know or understand all at this stage, the day will come that I will understand fully. I will no longer be craving insignificant pleasures. Instead, I will grow in understanding and maturity. Right now, I don't see things clearly. It's like a window splattered with mud. But the day will come that all impurities will be removed. I'll see clearly, just as God sees me clearly. I'll know Him as He knows me.
But for now, while we are not yet there, there are three things I can hold onto:
Trust in God, always. Believe that He is who He says He is, that He can do what He says He can do.
Let hope be the fuel that compels me to move forward: Hope in God.
And the best yet: Love relentlessly, without ever giving up.